Welcome to Speaking of Spirits! This issue we have a wonderful bonanza of ADC experiences sent in by Bob Kaplan. Bob has captured a truly loving and blessed series of spirit transitions, dreams and communications. I'm sure you will be as touched by his writings as I have been.
Love Knows No Boundaries
By Bob Kaplan
It's been 3 1/2 years since my wife, Puspa, passed away; and communication with her has never really stopped; though it certainly has changed form and definitely has stretched my conception of what is possible!
I was beside her when she left her body, and I could see and feel her transition. So many beings of Light were present to escort her to the other side! And I was shown and told that she went straight to the heart of God. So, I've always known that her transition was not only easy, but also truly wonderful, more wonderful than I can imagine. I never worried about how she was doing in spirit realm, and I sensed that she was truly happy. Those feelings were confirmed by a friend who had a dream about Puspa shortly after she died:
"Puspa appeared in front of me, and she had this amazing angel body - it was made of golden light, and huge "wings" of a rainbow-hued light that left trails when she moved them. She was giggling and laughing, and playfully zooming around. I sensed she was in a place where there was no awareness of anything but joy. She zoomed up close to me and whispered "I love my new job!", and laughed, then disappeared. I was left with the feeling (knowledge?) that she is a guardian for her children as long as they need her." When I heard this friend's dream, I knew deep inside that it was true.
I had a series of three resurrection dreams in those early months. I call them resurrection dreams, because in the dreams I knew that she was dead, and at the same time I experienced returning to her body as it had been before she passed over. They were a month or so apart, and they became more peaceful as I became more acceptant of my loss. In the last of those dreams I could see her, talk with her, even feel her, and yet I knew that she was not in the body. She was just using her old body to communicate with me and show me that she was no longer limited by having to inhabit a body. I also remember that one morning, one of her best friends and I had almost exactly the same dream about Puspa being resurrected! It was her way of letting us know she was keeping in touch.
During these first months I was in too much pain to have much communication, though I could certainly sense her presence whenever I really wanted to. I needed to do a lot of healing on myself and get comfortable with the fact that Puspa and I are now living in different realms, in different dimensions. So, instead of seeking after death communications, I focused on rebuilding my life alone. It was hard, but it has also been necessary. One day I was shown how much success I'd been having with this approach, because I realized all the ways in which I had taken on some of her character traits and interests. My love for flowers deepened, my knowledge of homeopathy (an alternative healing approach that she was proficient in) improved, I was becoming a better hands on healer. And at times I would find myself seeing things or thinking about things they way she used to. I know that those kinds of experiences happen a lot when people are married, but I felt them deepen after Puspa's death. I guess that they are "after death internalizations."
As time went on, I became uncomfortable referring to Puspa as my late wife. Even though those are the easiest words to use when describing her to others, I began to realize that thinking about her that way was keeping me in the past. I have a relationship with her NOW. But I didn't know just how to describe this relationship, so I started calling her a guardian angel, a very special guardian angel who I know very well. I was continuing to communicate with her and feel her presence in my life in many ways, but something was shifting, and I didn't yet know what it was.
I was at an Inner Focus energy-healing workshop in July when I felt the deepest communion with her that I've felt since her transition. It was wonderful, and I didn't know how to understand it until the next day when I had the longest verbal communication I've ever had with her. (It was her birthday.) She said:
"My beloved, we are eternally bonded. Bonding does not mean attachment, it signifies a connection that is deep and lasting and totally loving. We are bonded because we love each other, want the best for each other, support each other on our paths. You are learning to love me and support me even across the veils, which separate the human realm from the angelic realm. This is good, very good. I appreciate what you are doing and how you have stretched yourself already. I invite you to continue on this path. Yes, you can be of service to me and to others in the angelic realm. You can speak for us to other humans who have not yet learned to communicate with us, you can teach humans to communicate with us, you can do healings with us, and you can help spread light and love around the Earth.... Thank you beloved for keeping a place in your heart, in your body, in your entire being for me; and letting me speak, move, act and think through you. You are exemplifying the best of partnership. The shift you felt yesterday was not me leaving you, but my being with you in a different way. You will feel me less as you knew me last lifetime - less of my personality and less of your memories. You will feel me more as I am now - as your guardian angel. You will feel more of my angelic presence, more of my angelic qualities - because you too are moving more and more into your angelic self. Yes, our relationship, our communion is changing, moving into a higher vibration, because both of us are evolving. Now, we are growing together as ANGELIC PARTNERS. Our marriage continues, but now only in the realm of spirit. And yes, our marriage will continue to deepen, for our marriage is eternal."
So, now I have words that begin to describe our relationship - ANGELIC MARRIAGE. I've always known that I would continue to have a loving relationship with Puspa. But now I also know that my relationship with her will continue to change and grow and evolve. For me that is a true blessing because it takes away some of the sense of having "lost" her. And I'm reminded that those of us who have lost someone we love can have it all. We can have a partner on this side AND on the other side. We can have children on both sides, pets in both realms, dear friends in the flesh and in spirit and so much more.... Somehow I know that "death" of a loved one will never be quite the same for me again. For that I am truly thankful.
If you would like to submit your experience, have comments or suggestions, please e-mail me at LeedenEdge@aol.com. I am looking forward to hearing from you! Remember we are all on this journey together. Wishing you all many blessings! Till next time......